Monday, February 13, 2017

T'was time for a change. (Again.)

Hello, friends. (And Romans, and countrymen.)

Well, I have returned. I think this is the longest I've been away from my blog. (Can anyone confirm?)

I needed a break. Not just because I've been busy, not just because I have what feels like thousands of other things to think about, but because ( if you've been around here awhile you'll know this) when I am going through a significant change in my life, blogging gets put on the back burner. I still don't know why, and it's never a conscious decision. But it's the reality of the situation, and I've returned for now, after totally re-doing EVERYTHING. It brought me much joy, let me tell you. I'm thoroughly enjoying the black and white theme...

I don't know what else to say. Hopefully I haven't forgotten how to blog. I'm rusty, that's for sure. Y'all will have to bear with me.



P.S. The "About" page has been updated for those of ya who haven't read it over in awhile. Figured it was worth a mention. Peace out.

P.P.S Remind me to never say that again.

Wednesday, August 31, 2016

Reflecting (and cringing).

Hello, friends.

I'm going to skip the intro and cut to the chase.

This summer has been crazy. Really, really crazy. (I touched on that briefly in my last post, but I'm re-emphasizing.)
Do y'all remember three posts ago, the angst-y fourteen year old, terrified of the idea of taking driver's ED, getting a full-time job, and starting college classes?
Hello, that was me. (Keyword being was.)
Over the past two months, my idea of what I want to do with the next three years of my life and then the next two/four years after that have been flipped upside down and shaken around. I have a new found motivation for those things, and can't wait till I can do them!
 I'm not claiming that fifteen was some magic number, and that I'm now just so much older, experienced and mature, (quite the opposite really.)  But somehow, everything I was worried about two months ago, I'm now really, really, really excited for. So much so, I need to not rush myself and remember that I have time.
And I can't help but read that other post, cringe a little and go..."What was I thinking?"
Cause the truth is, being a kid is great. But I really don't understand how one might want to stay one forever, when life has so much to offer. I failed to step back and look at the big picture, if I'm being honest.

I do hope you all have had a lovely summer, and thanks for sticking with me.
-Felicia Kathryn

Sunday, August 21, 2016


“All in all, it was a never-to-be-forgotten summer — one of those summers which come seldom into any life, but leave a rich heritage of beautiful memories in their going — one of those summers which, in a fortunate combination of delightful weather, delightful friends and delightful doing, come as near to perfection as anything can come in this world.” 
My friends and faithful readers:
Here is a short collection of words and thoughts for you to reconnect with. It's been awhile; awhile meaning about two months! As you can almost certainly guess, I've been keeping busy this summer! (Stay tuned for my summer re-cap :)
 I found the above quote to be quite fitting. I can safely say that I've had the summer of a lifetime! So many new people, and experiences, and discoveries! 

I have very little time left before being thrown headfirst into the structure and commitment that the school year brings. It's bitter-sweet. Seeing as I can't relive all my favorite memories from the last two months, I have no choice but to move on and make some more! But I do miss everyone and everything already. 
How am going to prepare myself, though, for the upcoming school year? How am I supposed to just jump right into it? I hate transitions. I do not do well with change. This part of the year is always hard for me, in case you hadn't noticed. 
I'll just have to ease into it, I suppose. Take the next few weeks of vacation to not be totally unproductive. Writing, making lists, cleaning, organizing, and planning. :) That's what's in store for me these next few weeks.

Is this time of year difficult for anyone else? How do you keep the transition from summer to school from catching you off guard and unprepared? (Or do I always just overthink it? Lemme know!)

Your blogger,
Felicia Kathryn.

Tuesday, June 14, 2016

I'm growing up?! HELP.

I didn't sign up for this!

Oh wait. I really didn't sign up for anything.

My 15th birthday is rapidly drawing close, and I'm freaking out. I've never been worried about growing up. I never fantasized about Neverland, and I never thought I would think differently. But there was an exact moment a few weeks ago where I went: "Oh, crap. I'm going to be fifteen in just over a month. That's a year away from sixteen. I'll have to get a job next year! I'll get my permit! I'll need to start saving for a car! I'm going to start college courses!!" And I decided I didn't want to turn fifteen.
Well, ok, I kind of do. But can I stay fifteen?
So I have a predicament. I'm now stressed out of my fourteen (almost) fifteen year old brain about getting older. I don't want responsibility! This is my last summer of freedom!

Maybe it won't be so bad when I get there. Maybe the freedom I'll have down the road when I can drive will make up for the next two years. Maybe having a summer job won't be horrific. But I still can't help but not feel ready, and slightly dread being sixteen and seventeen. Time will tell, I suppose.

Can anyone relate? Am I the only one scared out of my wits at growing up? Can you brave veterans who have made it through the years I'm dreading lessen my fears? I need support here, people!

Your (depressing. sorry) blogger,
-Felicia Kathryn xxx

Thursday, April 21, 2016

A letter to my 24 year old self. (Ten years from now)

Felicia, what has life brought you?

As a fourteen (almost fifteen) year old, you certainly stress about the future a lot. What kind of car did you end up buying?
Did you go to college for business as planned? Did you do online college, or attended a brick and mortar school? Where are you dancing? Is it your job, like you've always dreamed?

Have you gotten your own apartment yet? You know, past you has got a Pinterest board dedicated to a future apartment. Is it pretty? It's probably really nice having a place and space to yourself. Past you has fantasized about it for quite some time now.

Are you teaching? Past you really wants to. Especially dance, or theatre, or even for your online school! That would be awesome.

Where are you in life? Do you have things happening, or things planned out? Or are you lost? I don't even know where 14 year old you pictures you at twenty four! I should hope you're writing a lot and have something published by now. Geez.

Have you traveled, yet? Gone to London, New Zealand, even San Diego Comicon? Airplanes aren't that great, but you know that past you dreams of "expeditions" to beautiful and exciting places.

Who are your best friends? I certainly hope they're the same as now, and you haven't grown apart. That would be very sad.

How much have you checked off you bucket list? Did you witness the solar eclipse coming next year? Have you dyed your hair one of the crazy colors you always wanted? Gone on a camping retreat with your best friends? Met one of your favorite actors? Gotten some writing published? If you answered "no" to three or more of the questions above, you need to get out there, girl!

Right now, I'm thinking a lot about writing. I wrote my first official and complete story a couple months ago, and got me out of (yet another) low point in writing. Do you remember what I'm talking about? Has that manuscript gone on somewhere, or is it just sitting forgotten in a folder?
You're (or rather I'M) struggling through learning guitar at the moment. It's something that I still hope to find myself doing in the future, but the question is if I've stuck with for ten years? For some reason, I seriously doubt it. xD
I'm about to wrap up my first year as a company trainee at the dance studio. I don't really think I need to describe how incredible it's been to future me, because my guess is it'll stick with me for years and years to come.

That's what's new with me. I hope you're happy, wherever you are in life right now. You're a full blown adult. That's scary.

Although, you're kind of lucky. Despite your insane pile of responsibilities and the fact that you have to make your own choices, it's probably pretty nice to be a grown-up.

Best of luck to you.

-Felicia Kathryn xxx

Monday, April 18, 2016

"changing everything carefully"

Spring is like a perhaps hand
(which comes carefully
a window,into which people look(while
out of Nowhere)arranging people stare
carefully there a strange
arranging and changing placing thing and a known thing here)and
changing everything carefully

( -from "Spring is Like a Perhaps Hand" by E. E. Cummings)

With classes and Orthodox Lent coming to an end and spring arriving, things are taking a turn. Change is carefully and thoughtfully creeping up on me; I'll soon not be studying Greek till my eyes feel like they're going to pop out of my head, won't feel so cooped up and restless, and won't be reading because I've been assigned it.

I'm stressed out of my mind about a Greek test, but I'm trying to slow down and not letting it consume me; giving myself the time for the things I love (hence the blog post I'm writing) and for feeling happy and at peace.

Knowing I need to spring clean and take care of some last minute school assignments, but taking time to enjoy the arrival of spring for a cup of tea's time.

Yes, I've finally jumped on the adult coloring book bandwagon. It's certainly very calming, as well as rewarding. It also gives me something to do with my hands. 

It's these small things that constantly remind me that while I'm still living in the quiet of winter, spring has arrived. And in the next few weeks, the change will not be so careful, and I'll be launched headfirst into the warmth and joy of spring weather. 

Wednesday, April 13, 2016

The answers to your questions!

At last! The long awaited response to the Q&A!
"Have compassion for yourself when you write. There's no failure -- just a big field to wander in." - Natalie Goldberg:
*photo via Pinterest*

C. Hatfield asks:
Q. What is your favorite ice cream flavor?
A. I like regular old coffee ice cream, and anything with peanut butter.

Q. What are your favorite and least favorite subjects in school?
A. My favorite school subject is most definitely writing.  I don't see it as work since I enjoy it, and my teacher gives awesome writing assignments. My least favorite is math. Ick.

Q. Is there something really crazy you want to do someday, like skydiving?
A. I actually would LOVE to skydive someday. And this isn't crazy, but I've ALWAYS wanted to be part of a flash mob. :)

Leah B. asks:
Q. What is my dream job? 
A. Broadway dancer/choreographer
Q. Habits?
A. I lick and bite my lips all the time, and I wiggle and tap my toes when I'm nervous/bored.
Q. What do you consider your hobby?
A. I'm a dedicated full time fangirl. Also writing.
Q. Favorite book?
A. Darling, I can't choose! I love Lord of the Rings, The Hobbit, Little Woman, The Lunar Chronicles, Harry Potter, Watership Down...I could go on and on.
Q. Favorite Movie?
A. Again, there's no way I can choose just one!! I love Lord of the Rings, Pirates of the Caribbean, The Sixth Sense, and The Princess Bride. 
Q. What is one of your weaknesses?
A. Food. 

Kate Jensen asks:
Q. 5 things you want to do before you turn 20?
A. 1. See a Broadway play
2. Learn to play two musical instruments
3. Have my own apartment
4. Go to London
5. Have my writing published

If you didn't get your question in, don't fret! Leave them below and I'll answer them in a future Q&A. :)
-Felicia Kathryn xxx

P.S. Thoughts on the re-vamp? I'm very proud of it. :)